Friday, June 20, 2008

Liberation


slutty?
Originally uploaded by kbelle.
Ok, so apparently my girl time last night helped me to feel a bit liberated and today I felt strong enough to take on the slut shirt.

The shirt I am wearing in this photo was the one I wore on what turned out to be the last day of my first marriage. I was married for months afterwards, legally, but that day is now clearly the end. In a last ditch effort to have fun together my ex-H and I went to a baseball game. I had only a few minutes to change so I kept the pink 3/4 sleeve button down and white tank from work and just put jeans or capris on the bottom. And before we left for the game he told me that I looked slutty.

My self esteem at that time in my life was so low that I totally internalized the comment and completely associated that shirt with me being a bad person. Although the lighting in my messy closet does it no justice, it is actually a very pretty, very girly pink that looks quite nice with my pale skin. Other than the fact that it is mildly fitted and shows that I am indeed female, there is nothing slutty about this shirt. There is nothing slutty or bad about me. But despite how much my life has changed for the better I've never been able to wear this shirt.

Until today. Go me.

6 comments:

Sharon said...

Yeah for libertation! I think the shirt looks quite nice. What do guys know anyway? lol. Go you!

pia said...

You go, girly! I spent 2 years too long in a similar place, so high fives to liberation!!!
PS, I was in Detroit this weekend, and had wanted to get in touch, but was kidnapped by the Tall Guy's family all in from all over the country.... hopefully next time!

Kristin said...

I love that shirt and is looks very nice on you!!!
Good for you!!!!
Leave that guy and his opinions in the past...I am glad to see that you have moved on to better things in your life.
Way to be female...we love ya!!!

CWH said...

The shirt looks fabulous! I'm glad you were able to rise above it and own that shirt again. You are smokin' and I love ya!

God's Rock Angel said...

You look lovely!

Not at all slutty! Thats just seriously mean!!!

Thats a nice shirt!

High Five to you!

a friend to knit with said...

i can't get over that he said that!!!!
floored.
you look totally great....good for you for wearing it.